|Image courtesy NaNoWriMo.org|
Any who. While many of you will be celebrating this day as Halloween (or All Hallow's Eve), I am (quitely) celebrating this day as NaNoWriMo Eve! NaNoWriMo, or National Novel Writing Month, is a great yearly event celebrated in November that dedicates an entire month to, you guessed it, writing a novel. The goal is 50,000 words, which may sound daunting to you but in reality, I sat down one night (I think the ONLY time I dedicated to the year I participated) and in an hour or so, penned about 2,500 words. But if you are a follower of my blog, you know that I have quite a few hurdles to overcome if I want to be successful in this year's NaNoWriMo!
First hurdle: lack of sleep due to my maternal circumstances. It is quite understood in the NaNo communities, you will probably lack for sleep through the month of November as you work to meet the 50k word goal. I lack sleep anyway so during the day I am more or less a zombie because we're still working on getting Big D to sleep through the night. I've weaned him off nursing during the sleeping hours because at almost a year old and getting three square meals a day with nursing in between, there is no reason for him to need to snack at midnight. He needs to learn to sleep from dusk to dawn like the rest of humanity loves to do, with that said, he still wakes up crying at least once around 1 am, which on most nights he has learned to just collapse into a heap on me (we co-sleep) or if he can't calm himself down, Gary will give him some water we have on the ready. After crying for an hour, water is a welcome gift and that usually does the trick, but we are still so tired from being woken up at all and THEN having to deal with a crying child. We're getting there though, nobody ever said sleep training... or ANY training... is easy.
Second hurdle: job hunting. Oh, vicious, illusive job hunting. Almost every moment I spend alone while Daniel naps or sleeps, I spend on my computer combing the internet for jobs to apply to. The search itself is so time consuming that by the time I find something, Daniel is awake already. It's really quite frustrating and with everything that's going on in my home financially, I'm not entirely sure I can let it slide for another month. Such is life.
Third hurdle: and perhaps the easiest to set on the back burner but still gives me inner grief - blogging. As my blog title suggests, yes, I am a bedtime blogger and naptime, too. When little man is out for x amount of hours, I take full advantage of it somehow. Along with my household responsibilities, I attend to my blogging ones because a blog won't keep itself (obviously!). I love blurb writing, like when I recap what happened during the week when I didn't have much of worth to write about or my Mama Moments posts when I talk about Daniel's little moments that send my mama heart soaring. But on a new blog such as mine with a very small group of followers composed mostly of people I already know, that kind of blogging doesn't always do the trick. But I guess I just came back from an unofficial month-long hiatus anyway so what is one more for good measure?
I'm sure there are a thousand and one more reasons for me not to dive right in, or even knee-deep, in NaNo2012, but there is only one reason TO do it and I have it - desire. I want to. I REALLY want to. I want to be a writer and Gary constantly tells me I have to practice to be any good at it. Of course! I get plenty of practice on my blog but it's just me rambling 99.99% of the time; I have no idea if I'm actually any good at it as a craft, an art. And that last little bit really doesn't matter, if someone has the desire to do anything, they should do it. I had an intense desire to learn to snowboard for YEARS, from childhood, but just tried it about 5 years ago and wouldn't you know that I took to it like a fish in water once I actually tried it? Yeah. Kind of like that.
I just have to try.
|Halloween 2010, the first and only year I've participated so far.|